Loneliness

There came a point just before I turned 40 when I gave up on my dream of finding Mr Right and raising a family. ''OK God,'' I said.

''My way hasn't worked.

I give up.

I'll follow you.

Even into loneliness."

At that point I shed bitter tears of self pity, imagining the long, empty years of solitary servitude stretching out before me. Even so, I decided he was worth it.

The crazy thing was that instead of me giving anything to him, I ended up giving God the space he needed to heal my life. I had been the one blocking him from blessing me.

When I put him first he made me whole, gave me joy and put me in a place where I didn’t need a family to be complete. And then he gave me one anyway.

Whatever you want from God, give it up and go after the real prize;

the privilege of serving him.

If you put him first and wrap your life around him you'll discover he wants better things for you than you want for yourself.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

''For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.